He started with homegrown tobacco and at the ripe old age of five, he was allowed to smoke in the house. When I was a young child he smoked Lucky Strike; a brand nearly forgotten now. Later I remember Pall Mall, and last of all L & M.

After his heart attack and quadruple bypass surgery, he quit smoking, but not long after he was diagnosed with lung cancer. Doctors removed the lower portion of one lung and with it the entire tumor. They gave him the good news and told him he’d be fine. Hooray!

However, the cancer reared its ugly head with a vengeance about a year later in the form of a tumor in the center of his chest where the lungs join. In that area it’s inoperable and because he’d had heart problems, chemo wasn’t an option. He was given radiation treatments and eighteen months to three years to live. He lived three years and died in 1990. It was a horrific sight during the last week as he bit his own mouth from the waves of pain until his mouth bled.

He was my Daddy. Our two oldest children barely remember him. Our youngest never met him. None of his great-grandchildren ever met him. He was young enough to still be living today. It wasn’t at all “kool”.

Paul MacCready, Jr. said, “Your grandchildren will likely find it incredible or even sinful that you burned up a gallon of gasoline to fetch a pack of cigarettes.”, but they won’t. They won’t even know who you were.



— filed under sagegrass because i said that


a penny for your thoughts?

November 26, 2018 at 8:03 pm

How unfortunate to have lost your father at such a young age. And to think the family he never got the chance to meet and influence. I always did think “Kool” was an ironic name for a cigarette.

Michael Rawlukreply
November 26, 2018 at 9:16 pm

A sad tale that has been repeated way too many times.
I have never smoked, drink very little, and have lived a healthy lifestyle. So what happens? I have a very rare bone marrow cancer. We all have some tittle time bomb ticking inside us.

Elizabeth Buckalewreply
November 26, 2018 at 9:41 pm

So very sad, Sherri. I’m so sorry you lost your Daddy so young. What we didn’t know then…

November 26, 2018 at 11:20 pm

Génaile cette affiche pour fumer quel découpage ert vue recherchée
Belle journée

November 27, 2018 at 1:23 am

This is so hard to read, sherri

Bill Phillipsreply
November 27, 2018 at 1:48 am

Very sad Sherri. I used to smoke but stopped 18 years ago. My father died at the age of 55. He, like most of his generation smoked and died from a coronary . He never even lived to meet my wife. My children had no grandfathers as Angela’s dad died 6 weeks before we were married. He was a very heavy smoker and died of a heart attack. Happily neither of my children have ever smoked and I am lucky enough to be able to enjoy my grandchildren

Martine Liboutonreply
November 27, 2018 at 5:06 am

J’aime beaucoup ta photo !! Super les textures !

November 27, 2018 at 5:08 am

So sorry ! I smoked Craven A but stopped a long time ago . It was another life …none of my children ( and grand children old enough…) smoke .

marjolein vd fotokraamreply
November 27, 2018 at 5:34 am

How unfortunate to have lost your father too young.
Beautiful ode

Anita Bowerreply
November 27, 2018 at 5:46 am

So sad. Beautifully written. The photo is perfect for the sad story.

November 27, 2018 at 5:58 am

Yes definitely unkool. I quit 30 odd years ago. If I hadn’t I would surely be dead by now

November 27, 2018 at 9:26 am

Such a sad story

November 27, 2018 at 11:34 am

the world is changing their collective minds about cigarettes Sherri… but the young have not learned the lesson yet…
i suffer from COPD from smoking for 55 years… it is too late to unring the bell….peter:)

November 27, 2018 at 1:03 pm

Interesting but also hard to read, an appropriate photo.

November 27, 2018 at 1:37 pm

Triste mais le tabac fait des dégâts !….
Ma nièce 55 ans est DCD dans les mêmes conditions en ce début d’année !…..

November 27, 2018 at 6:28 pm

Many of us have similar sad stories. My dad made it to 70, but he was a 2 pack a day smoker until the day he died. His decline was one of many motivating factors in my decision to quit.

Elaine Kreply
November 28, 2018 at 2:33 am

i’m so sorry, sister… it’s so horrible what the tobacco people did… the tv commercials with doctors recommending a certain brand, saying it was soothing to the throat…. it’s hard to imagine now… we’ve come a long way, baby…
when i was a little girl i begged my dad to quit, but he said that he couldn’t because he would gain weight… so when i was 14 years old, i started smoking to lose weight, didn’t quit until middle age… i’ve been quit for 10 years now, and i still have asthma. i reckon i got off easy.

November 28, 2018 at 7:13 am

What a story, Sherri! Oh, my. Do you remember the day when they were no longer allowed to advertise cigarettes on TV commercials? We’ve really come from far in that regard but the memories for some of us still remain.

November 28, 2018 at 1:25 pm

I’ve thought for a long time that the tobacco companies should be sued out if existence. Or, better yet, tobacco be regulated by the FDA as a dangerous drug. That’s what it is and the harm done to individuals and society is huge.

Phil Vaughnreply
December 5, 2018 at 2:04 am

A sobering, sad, and poignant entry, Sherri. I’m sorry about your father, but I truly hope that your message is taken seriously.

December 12, 2018 at 9:53 pm

Oh that is so very sad. My mom quit and it gave a few more years but the cancer took her too. Your dad truly suffered.

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